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Name: TiFF!-any Woon
State: California
Birthday: 8/21/1986
Interests: Trying to love everything like Jesus, playing, drumming, volleyballing, eating ,
kung fu-ing, sleeping, really good converstaions, and learning Mandarin (until I can find someone to teach me my native Cantonese!)
Expertise: Trying really hard to do something by myself, screwing up, and then taking an extra long time to realize that I need God so much
Occupation: Student
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AIM:  take a guess....hint: rhymes w/ SchnoCkEtGrL016
Member Since:
7/10/2003
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| wow. here it is. the long anticipated END of college. what am i supposed to think? to feel? haha, whatever the expectation is, i don't think thats me. i don't think its fully hitting me. it'll probably take awhile.
so what's a post-college, reflective xanga post supposed to be?
--Haha, lotsa pictures and shout-outs? hmm, i'll let other ppl do that.
--Am i supposed to shell out things i've learned? hmm, i'm not that cool, it'd come out like brain barf if i tried right now and i wouldn't testify wholly, nor give Him enough justice and glory for it all.
--Am i supposed to reflective and greatly affected? well, i think there's still a lot going on and coming up, so i haven't really had a chance to dwell in the moment, nor will i get to for awhile.
Soooooo, i'll just keep it simple. After it's all done and through, god-willing, the next day is another day. And will I strive to love Him more tommorow? I hope so. B/c if anything, in the past four years, He's been worth it all. The lost study time, the awkward social interactions, the uncomfortable uncertainty, the times away from people on my own, the choice to walk away from what our generation calls "fun," the mistakes, the non-academic studying, the sacrifices. Haha, and I actually enjoy all that now. B/c He's such a worthy treasure.. I am my beloved's, and He is mine...... SWEEET. =) Pray for me, that I'd obey, believe, and love Him and people w/o restraint but in wisdom, more and more and more everyday.
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On a whatevers-type note, I sit here and listen to relient k. Its been awhile since we've chilled. They're insightful and deep and its like they know exactly what i'm thinking or feeling! I think that's why i heart crowder, relient, and sls. they're just raw... musically, lyrically, heart-fully. I miss these oldies... yall, make more albums! Here are some favorite lines i've heard, since listening to them on repeat for the last few hours:
"I just wasted/ 10 seconds/ of your life"~ ________________________________
"Failure is a blessing in disguise/ pull my heart out, reconstruct/ and in the end its nothing but/ the shell of what i had when i first started" ~_________ ___ __________
"if home is where the heart is, then home is where you are." ~ ___ _______ ___ ____ ___
"The most crucial thing I lack/ is a thing/ called/ "tact"/ And if you're listening so intently/ then the smartest thing to say/ is to tell myself not to say a thing" ~____ __ ______
"You cried wolf/ The tears they soaked your fur/ the blood dripped from your fangs /You said, "What have I done?"/ You loved that lamb/ With every sinful bone/ And there you wept alone/ Your heart was so contrite/ You said, "Jesus, please forgive me of my crimes/ Sanctify this withered heart of mine/ Stay with me until my life is through/ And on that day please take me home with you"" ~ ____________
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And you said "I know that this will hurt/ but if I don't break your heart, then things will just get worse./ If the burden seems too much to bear/ remember, the end will justify the pain it took to get us there/
Reach out to me/
Make my heart brand new/ Every beat will be for you, for you/ And I know you know/ You touched my life/
When you touched my heavy heart/ and made it light"~ ___ __ ___ ___
(for those of you who are bored, i will give you valuable ego-props, i mean eprops, and an extra special "HI!" next time I see you, if you wanna tell me what song the lyrics are from =P)
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| My dad sent me this email today. This is just one way God has been so awesome in my life. Parents-to-be, please do this for your children!
In our last discussion regarding your trip to Phil. I indicated that I wanted you to memorize
certain Scriptures to help prepare you for potential events.
This passage came to me this week and I want you to begin the memorization of Psalm 91.
In addition, I will also commit to memorizing it along with you. So for this week lets do
the first 8 verses. Sounds good? I am going to use NASB. You can use NASB or KJV
or NKJV or NIV, but don't use a paraphrase(The Message, Living Bible, etc).
Be prepared for a "sword" fight in Reno.
Anyone else wants to take me on??
FATHER
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| "Then Jesus said to His disciples, 'If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself."
This never really hit me that hard, until I read the following:
"What
does it mean to live a life of self‑denial, dying to self? What
does that really mean? Have you ever thought about that? Think of it
this way.
When you are neglected, unforgiven, or when you are purposely
set at naught and you sting and you hurt with the insult of that oversight, but
your heart is happy, being counted worthy to suffer for Christ, that is dying
to self.
When your good is evil spoken of, when your wishes are crossed
and your advice is disregarded and your opinions are ridiculed, and you refuse
to let anger rise in your heart or even defend yourself, you take it all
patiently in loving silence, you're dying to self.
And
when you lovingly and patiently bear any disgrace, any regularity, any
annoyance, when you can stand face to face with folly and extravagance and
spiritual insensitivity, and endure it as Jesus did, that is dying to
self.
When you are content with any food, any money, any clothing, any
climate, any society, any solitude, any interruption by the will of God, that
is dying to self.
And when you never care to refer to yourself in
conversation or record your own good works, or itch after commendation from
others, and when you truly love to be unknown, that is dying to self.
When you see your brother prosper and have his needs wondrously met, and can
honestly rejoice with him in spirit and feel no envy and never question God,
though your needs are greater and still unmet, that is dying to self.
And
when you can receive correction, and reproof from one of less stature than
yourself and humbly admit inwardly as well as outwardly that he's right and
find no resentment and no rebellion in your heart, that is dying to self.
Are
you dead yet?" ~jmac
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| haha, I'm such a newb at life. w/ Christ. in the real world.
Break has:
-been Full. Simple. Convicting. Joyous. Thought-provoking. Humbling.
-reminded me of what amazing gifts I have IN people... the fam, the girls, the Sunset
-pivoted me into a better direction after a draining, non-abiding fall qtr
(kinda like the british guys w/ fuzzy hats when they make a 90 degree turn, but like a 180 pivot, hopefully)
-gave me chance to practice slowing down
-interact w/ ppl on a chiller level, less forced, more natural, open to play
-prepared me to pursue a *gasp* career in biotech?!
I feel like I'm slowly growing into my own skin, yanno? Like, I'm made with all these quirks, interests, and seemingly non-holy and -esteemed goals for a God-given reason. And as He raises and matures me in these areas, He gives me opportunities to use them. If I'm not ready, I'm not getting the opportunity. SoH SimPoH. Its kinda hard to admit I'm growing in the simple things, bc I've always pridefully told myself and probably fronted to others that I've got it down.
But hey, whatevs. World, I'm growing =) I think. In life. w/ Christ. In the real world. And I praise and love Him for actively--subtly--uncomfortably--quietly-- refining me.
I love being Daddy's little girl. I love the gospel that lets me take pure joy and true hope in Christ through my ridiculous inadequacies. I love Dad.
I thought this article spoke into one of the challenges I want to conquer this qtr.
For those who aren't partial to many words, the few pics I have are on FB. hahaha, and if you know what I mean when I say "FB", welcome, brethren, to this electronically-fueled, sensory-overloaded, ever-changing world of 2008. How shall we be a light to this generation?
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| The shots are amazing. Each one draws you in! Seriously... My eyes would pop out and splatter all over my lovely lappy if God didnt create such good fibers to keep them in. Wanna see what other amazingness God created? GO WATCH THESE.
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